Do you ever sit with yourself and just wish you didn’t grow up so fast, or didn’t get exposed to things that forced you to grow up fast, they let you know so much about a world you’re not ready for, it’s like you aged 100 years from this experience that you wish you never had to encounter. Everyone around you thinks oh you’re really mature and wise when really, this is just the trauma, you were forced to be mature and know things most people your age don’t know, or even go through. I know that we all have things going on in our lives some of us though, go through unimaginable stuff. That they can’t even talk about, because no one will understand or mainly cause they don’t really know how to talk about it. They just learned how to dodge those feelings or thoughts till they think they’re gone, but really they’re not they’ll always be there. Then you get lucky for once, you find that one person that makes you feel safe and you let your guard down become so vulnerable. They care and understand even give you credit for how strong you are for going through so much yet you’re still kind and have a smile on your face, well this person sometimes decides to leave with no logical explanation or valid reason. Of course life goes on and it’s not the end of the world, but it kills you. Even though you thought after all that you’ve been through you can’t be hurt again, you thought that you’ve felt all the hurt that could be felt in this world, but then life surprises you with something that you didn’t see coming, to prove to you that you aren’t dead inside after all.